all the way from wellington, new zealand.

alhamdulillah, after 4 days here, my health is getting better.
aku x rasa sejuk sngt pn, boleh ja terima, tapi badan aku x reti2 nk register mklumat sket..mmg bdan aku reaction nerve system suma lmbt..aku ckp ok ja, tpi asek bersin, dmam slsema ..ok a tu kn, normal kot tuk adapt..keke

wlopun dh berhari2 bley onl9, day 4 bru aku cm rsa lapang sket nk wt post. aku rasa, aku bukn sorg blogger yg baek ah. post lmbap..hahaha =P ..

ad alsan dia...ngeh2..ya a, fes2 mai, msti nk kna setel down lu kn. tiap2 hari kot asek pi shopping. bli bedding la, bli mknan la, brg2 dapuq la, brg2 bilik mndi-sbun pa suma. pi town tuh, klo blek x da barang besaq2, mmg x sah a. dh naek bukit weyh..haiyya..tpi bru rini la blek jln kaki naek tgga yg cm nk mati tu..3 ari sblom neh, blek nek bas ja..keke..=p ( weyh, siyes a, tgga tuh tggi abeh, ngn bwak brg berat g, mmg cm nk tkluaq lutut wey..)-tgga tuh shortcut for pedestrians from uni and areas nearby to town-

*stop sat, pi update pics kt fb..hoho*

okeh,smbung blek.


pi amek kad bank pastu pi mkn kt kedai cinta..msian punya..sdap a gk..tutup awai kot, 2.30ptg...kol 5 bru bukak blek..=(

smbung shopping! =(

beli byk brg dapur day 4 neh..kn nk msak..(??)

blek awai lam kui 5 cm tuh, pastu kui 7 ada yg harbour cruise . nek boat tgok2 skitar welly tym mlm2..sjuk2..angin kuat terjah muka..geli bulu mata..pastu sembang2 psal lgu 'saya anak mlysia'..bley wt 'meremang bulu mata' lgu neh woo..inside joke ngn farah..haha..

act aku x bpa suka sngt harbour cruise tuh, sbb tym tu dh dkt nk mghrib..aku cm pntang sket a nk kuaq umah tym dkt2 mghrib neh, rsa x sdap..uhuu..dh a pi kat laut kn..mau nya antu ayaq ka pa..*sja2..kekeke*

abeh cruise , cpat2 aku nk blek umah, tkut mghrb burn..smpai umah kol 8,isya' sni 8.20 cm tuh, so smpat a..huhu..neh suma psal aku ttgl solat subuh pgi td..bgun2, dh abes wktu..org klo travel2 neh, jetlag..x ley lgi nk adapt ngn wktu2 tido la ap la..aku bnda2 tuh suma ok ja..no hal..tpi just jetlag kt wktu solat a..cm x aware sngt bila nya msuk wktu, sbb tym smpai2 lu tgh cuti..huhuhu..but now, dh bley reg wktu solat lam otak..keke

owh, n blek2 umah td, dri lif dh terbau nsik goreng..ingt kn spa la yg msak..upanya mai dri aprtment aku!..klam kabut aku n intan bila bukak pintu asap pnuh...huhu..dh a cuak asap kuaq.. neh klo fire alarm detect mati a kna fine, sbb otomatik kol fire dep kot klo bunyi..tpi x pa, suma pn ok ja..b4 kuaq td, kami msak nsik goreng. x smpat nk mkn, tggai ja atas dpuq..intan ingt dh tutup dh suis bila kuaq..upanya dia konpius kt mna yg off nya..huhu..x pa la, x dak rezki nk dinner nsi, so mkn mac n cheese ja..kekeke..

the 8/11

8/11

two things happened.

my friend and i were involved in an accident. my first-time experience.
Alhamdulillah,we both were physically fine, but the motorist received some little injuries.
he flung passed us over the bonnet.
it seemed just like the accident stunt on TV.
however, this time, it really was REAL.

that friend drove the car, even though, she's just met an accident 3 days ago.
and still I came to meet her. i could not run from feeling full of guilt.
after settling some issues 'bout the crash, her mother drove us home.
i knew, she's still in shocked.
we onlined at her home.
later, i asked my sister to pick us up and sent us to KFC.
we hadnt eat anything as the accident happened when we were about to 'carik makan'.
but thanks nila, i got to see the lake.thank you so much.
my sis bought us two movie tickets when we arrived at the mall.

-phobia-thai
getting in with the sound crashing out loud, freaky head snake in the mouth of iguana, biting the inner flesh, freaky sound, and a scene of car accident???..i knew, this was too much.
i could stand horror movies, even though i really do not like it.but just three hours after we met one, and then we were watching it on screen, you can guess what was wrong.
nila said, she's used to 'watch' horror movies with hands covering the eyes and face.and she could sit in the cinema till the movie ended. that time was different, coz she had never been in accident.
i said nothing to her about this.only asking if she would want to go to the ladies.we went out, and never came back after that.
i used my own fear to reason not going back into the cinema.

i would cry, again and again.
guilty is everywhere.

it was fated for the crash to happen.what was done, was done.
Alhamdulillah a3la kulli hal. i got to know how people deal with crash, live.
what to do , and what not. i experienced the scene.
okay, enough of it. the crash was taken care off.

at the mall, we roamed , hanged out, buying things.
we talked and laughed, searching some gifts for the teachers.
as if nothing happened, we joked around.
the M and H.
the N and I.

the clock reached 4pm, and we stopped at a cafe outside the mall.
ordered something to eat, have a chat with a friend we ambushed working there.
we got special service though.
the cafe was actually self-service.

then it rained quite heavily, had to wait with traffic jam.
my sis and i sent nila home and we both went back to alor star.
we got home late, so there was surely some 'advice' waiting for us.
and the rest was history.

second thing.

Chelsea won the match between Manchester United 1-0.
that topped ARSENAL as 2ND.
very delighted.

pLAn - uNpLaN -no PlaN -nowhere-

ckp psal plan....pnah dgaq kn 'if we fail to plan, then we plan to fail"....erm, nih aku len lak..dh plan siap2 pa suma...so cm nih ja cita dia..pa yg jdik on dat so-called plan==>

29/08/08-Friday

Aku nk pi 4 tmpat sptutnya rini,nk jumpa kak aku,adek aku, n mmber aku...aku duk plan bjet nk pi kt kak aku,pahtu sngh skola lma sat then pi klia antaq mmbe..pahtu bru pi kt adek aku last skli…pahtu cm na tah tgok2 jumaat tuh aku ad test lak,so abeh lmbt..pahtu lak ad test hfzan sat..last2,kui 12 stgh bru complete..abeh ja suma,trus aku lari balek hstel,siap2 pa suma n kol cab..asalnya ad td cab msa aku otw blek hstl..skli bila kuaq x dak la..tpaksa la aku tgu ..huhu..seb bek la sat ja..lam 15 mnt tuh aku dh smpe ktm..nek ktm kui 1 tghr dh…pahtu kak aku kol, dia kata dia dh otw..almk,aku nya tren nih bkn nya jln g pn..adeyh…x pa la, tgu ja la…den,smntra nk smpe tuh aku bwak skli bku myor of castrbridge,nvel stdy tuk lit ..sjam stgh gk nk smpe mid tuh, n aku smpt bc 5 chaps..huih..lega aku x bzir msa cm tu ja..keke..so, smpe2 tuh dh kui 2.30 kot..pahtu p la kt mcd,ingt ka nk solat lu, tpi dh kak aku ad appointment lak lam kui 3..so aku pn blah ar awai skit…mkn2 pa suma,dh kui 3.45…den bru aku pi solat zhor,pahtu blek truih..aku gtau kak aku, x smpt dh nk pi kt adek,sbb mmbe nk fly mlm nih..pahtu nk snggh skola lma sat otw tuh…

tpi tgu pnya tgu,tren x smpe2 g..lam kui 5 leby gk ar bru nek…aku lam ati ingt nk cancel ja sngh skola lma tuh,nk trus klia..tpi sbb aku ingt nk asr kt x-skul…or smpt la jmpa spa2 yg dh ad..bila dh smpe kjg tuh, dri ktm nk amek la cab pi skola…ad la sorg pkcik nih, tnya nk pi na, n dia pn nk la hntaq..ikut pnya ikut,aku crik la mna cab dia..pahtu dia tnjuk keta wira kaler merun kot klo x clap…aku lam ati dh rsa plek smcm ja…uish..aku x cya klo cab x dak lambg cab tuh,nih msti kes teksi sapu..den aku ckp, x pa la pkcik..sya x mo nek yg nih..nk crik cab len..ingtka pkck tu nk marh..tpi dia cm begng la gk cm na pn, so aku pn pi la crik cab yg btol2 cab…hah, bla dh jumpa cab, skli jam lak tgh jln..adeyh la…lmbt la aku cm nih..aku jnji ngn abg kui 8-9…tpi dh nk dkt kol 6 stil x smpe skola g..

den,kui 6 lbey bru smpe skola,…smpe2 ja dpn gate tuh, kna than ngn pak gad lak..laaa…pa psey lak nih…?...aku cm dh cuak2 dh tkut lmbt..aku nk solat asr nih..upanya2, pas kui 6 cab dh ley msuk kwsan skola..oooo..ok..so aku pn trun la n jln kaki pi flat waden..act, ad reunion usrah …aku suh mmber aku trun msa aku smpe dpn flat tuh, den nek n jumpa ummi(mursyidah usrah) n solat2 pa suma, dh pn kui 7 lbey..wuish, aku dh nk kna pi klia dh nih..tpi sbb msghrb dh dkt,aku pn tgu ja la kt ctu..pi jmaah kt mjsd ehsan..rndu la plak,lma x mai cni…jmpa la jnr2 n adek2 dorm dlu…dh f5 pn depa..pahtu dgaq cermah sat,saudara eikhwan..beh crmah tuh, tpi sbb aku nk cpat, aku jnji ngn pkck tksi td kui 8.00,pahtu kol2 pkcik kta, x smpt skng..tgu 8.30 stgi la..adeyh, aku dh lmbt sngt2 dh nih..pahtu aku pn pi la blkng, slam2 ngn spa g yg knai aku,..

otw nk kuaq msjd tuh tesmpak lak ngn cek mat..uih..jgn kna than sudah…huuu…dia tnya ko spa?..tpi aku dgaq len lak,”kos apa?”..aku pi jwab bnda len..den aku ckp x-stdnt..so nk blek,seb bek x kna than..feuwh…disbb kn msa sngt2 dh x smpt, aku mcm nk belari ja pi gate skola..dh ar jauh..lam 400mtr ad ar..bila dh smpe kt gate, pkck tksi tuh dah ad,jln trus, tpi mlm pn jam gk area ktm nih..adeyh..pahtu tmbh sdeyh lgi,ktm kjng tuh tren x smpe2 g…ampeh guh..15mnuts aku tgu…jam dh kui 9 dh tem tuh..oi tren. Mna kao nih…cpat la meh..aku pnat dh nih…haih…seb bek la ad tmpt dudk,den bru ja duduk tiba2 bnyi loceng kuat giler…cm loceng eskem pn ad gk…sket tliga aku, upa2nya sblah aku ja loceng tuh, den bnyi bsing thap gabn, ingt kn apa,tgok2…ketpi..bkn nya lrt,..aduhhh..bila nk smpe nih lrt oii…tem nih mmg x smpt nk bkk bku dh..duk tgu pnya tgu, lam 9.15 bru tren ad…alhmdulillah..tpi aku jnji kui 8 hig 9..nih 9 lbey stil kt kjg ag…aiya…ok2..x pa2..nih last stsen..stgi nk smpe nilai dh..n 5 mnt g kui 10 aku smpe gk nilai..

tpi nih bru nilai..nk pi klia stu hal lgi…ad bas, tpi lmabt,,sjm bru smpe…flght abg kui 11 lbey b4 kna prepone..tpi tym tuh aku x tau g…den cra pling cpat nk smpe is by txi..si pkcik2 nih duk wt lmbt lak..aku dh la rush nih..aku mntk tuk smpe klia scpat mgkin.n sorg pkcik nih bley smpe lam msa 20 mint..tym dh kui 10..hah,x kesh la bpa pn byaq,aslkn 10.30 tuh aku dh kt klia..aku pn ikut ar pkcik tuh ,lju gilak ah txi dia bwak….cm nk exiden pn ad..”uish,klo exiden nih suma aku x smpt..”..tpi aku gk yg suh dia cpat..klo kna sman tuh sori la ek pkcik..speeding smpe 140 lbey..beh gk lju2 cm tuh..haha..msa otw tuh, aku rsa cm x smpt ja nk jumpa mmber aku..tpi sbb dh alng2 smpe nilai, aku go on ja..mna tau kot2 la smpt ka..

finally, kui 10.30 aku dh jejak kaki kt dprtture hall…lega sket..aku crik la dia,or org2 n geng2 dia..x nmpk lak..adeyh,tlupa nk pkey lens la b4 mai td..ptut la cm lupa sumthing ja..den aku kol la mmbe aku nih….”mgt,ko ktna nih?”….” aku dh nek skyline nk pi plane dh nih.dh jejak kaki dpan plane nih..”………hahahaha…..-aku gelak-…..~mmg aku btol2 x smpt~….”awt lmbt sngt?-aku sngkut kt kjang td.”…..”x pa la,k slmt jlan-assalamualaikum.”..----……..

Aku ingt nk blek trus, tpi ktm mna ad dh tem nih…dh stop ope…so aku pn ingt nk tdoq kt ctu ja la..but fes aku nk pi crik surau, x solat isyak lgi nih..aku ikut ja la sign bod,ish..awt x jumpa lak..dh ar rbun ..huhu…so aku pi la tnya akak sorg nih kt konter…tnjk nya tnjuk tpi x jumpa2 gk…adeyhla…aku pn dh mleh ar..aku pi crik atm,nk amek duit sket..wallet aku dh underweight nih..sian dia..den tpndng la bnk rkytnya..trus le aku cucuk bdan atm tuh…pahtu, aku round2 ag..ingt nk crik surau lgi, skli jln2..tgok2..laaa..ad ja cimbbbb..ampeh nya…ingt ka jauh..x pa la..dh amek dh..

so aku pn trus ja jln,pusing2 deprtre hall tuh, …den ad la stu lgi rombongn, berkot suma dak2 nih..hm..nih bdak tjaan mna lak en..aku tgok ja la depa..dh td x ley nk hntaq abg, so aku tgok depa nih..nmpk la famly depa pa suma duk lmbei2 …aku snap pic depa, cm lwak pn ad gk..slh jln nk check-in..geli hati lak…cm na la ley slah jln..exited nk nek flite kot..kekeke…dh abeh suma tuh, aku round2 ag…den aku nmpk ad balai tnjau..so aku pn p la mryau kt blai tnjau tuh..otw tuh, nmpk la bdak2 nih kna cek pa suma,scan skli g brng2…smpt kol pn ad gk…aku tgok dri ats…pahtu jln depan n depan lgi smpe la kt blai tnjau..dri ctu nmpk ar suma plane yg dh nk take-off…fmly len duk rmei2,aku usha2 ja fmly depa nih, den aku pi duk kt stu kusi kosng, ..nk tgu smpe plane dia tke off…skli ngn fmly len la..

pahtu cm na tah, ad sorg pkcik nih mai duk kt kusi tuh, n smbg2 ngn aku..tnya aku hntaq spa la, mai ngn spa,blek ngn spa..aku cm agk bersmar gk ah..x mo ah dia tau aku mai sorg..stgi pk ap lak….upanya, pkck tuh mai antaq ank sdra dia..dak kmb..pi cnda gk…bila flte dh tke off, ktorg suma pn trun la…pkck tuh ad pesan ,jgn tdo kt blai tnjau, org x dak cm bhya gk..den dia suggest surau, tpi surau pn cm kosng, so dia sran kn aku tdoq ja kt depture hall tuh…hui..terharunya aku..so aku pn mntk dri la,nk p round2 crik surau..haih..mna la surau nih…pusing pnya pusing last2 jumpa gk..gilak trsork ah..ap la..pdan le cm bhya..ish2…so aku pn benti solat isyak..

den,ad la plak sorg akak nih..mntk aku jg kn brg dia sat..dia bru ja smpe…nk solat…pahtu, abeh pa suma, smbg2 la plak ngn dia..cm tvew pn ad gk..dia bru grad mu’tah u,syariah…aku plak cm dh ngntuk nih…dia duk kmas2 brng ..den dia bg aku Jordan cheese…erk..?..tq la..aku mmg x mkn pa2 lgi pn…pahtu nk tdoq sat…smbey smbg tuh,dia kta nk pi try kfc sat…lma x mkn..aku pn sian la kt dia, plus aku pn x mkn pa2 g,so aku pn pi la skli…mmg dh ngntuk abeh ar tym tuh..nk kui 2 dh tem tuh…tgok2 dia nk blnja aku..adeyh..segan nya…dia bkn nya knai aku pn…segan abeh ar…huih..rezki2….dh org blnja ,mkn je la en..mmg lapq guh la..


pahtu mkn2 pa suma blek surau blek..aku dh x than nk bkk mta full dgree dh nih..ngntukkkk!!!...argh..nguap cm hapa ja…yg akk tuh dia x ley tdoq sbb dh tdoq lma dh lam jrney td..n skli lgi akak nih mnyumbg budi yg sngt2 x psa2 aku terhutng bdi, tah taun bila ley byaq tah sbb dia duk kt s’wak. Dia pi bg aku pnjm slimut dia..masya-allah,hmba yg lemah nih Kau bntu sdemikian rupa…surau tu mmg sjuk guh..ter ketaq aku pn ad gk..konon bley than la..tpi dh ad org ofer slimut, ap g, bantai ja la kn..den aku pn tdoq la berselimutkn org nya…aku x ingt smpt mmpi ka x..huhe…rsa cm nyenyak ja aku tdoq ateh sjdh tuh..myb pnat sngt kot siang td berkejaq sna cni…akak tu plak tgu sbuh kot..aku ckp la, kt cni, sbuh lam kui 6,tym tuh bru kui 4…alahai…aku pn smbung blek tdoq…zzzzz…..

”dik,dik…bgun,dh sbuh..”..aku trjga trus..bepisat2 mta..dia bru sudah solat ja..n org dh nk stat rmei..nek sesak surau tuh..smntra x rmei gi ,aku p bsuh muka n solat…juz in tym ja aku sudah, sbb tym tuh, tmpat wduk dh pnjg cm ketpi Q dia….feuwh….eyh,lupa lak nk gtau nma akak tuh…nma dia kak atisya..akak nih dh siap2 nk check-in dh..flite swak dia kui 8 kot..n dri dia smlm gk la yg aku tau ,klo flight ,kna check-in 3jm b4 deprture..ooo..so, ptutnya mmg dh x smpt la kn smlm tuh…hm..x pa la..at least I know one thing…hikmah dia….so kt surau tu aku bpisah la ngn akk tuh, aku nk trus blek kolej dh…aku trus aras bwah, ingt nk amek cab, tpi cm mahai sngt lak..smlm nek x rsa mahai plak..tpi smlm juz 40 hengget ja..nih smpe 70..adoish..kontang abeh la aku kng…so aku round2 g…pi la tnya kt konter..den I decided nk nek bas ja…2 inggit ja..haa,kn lgi sep..jmat cermat sudepp…kueh3….den aku trun stu g aras…pahtu x jmpa jln kot,sbb x nmpk sign bod,kn rbun..n skli lgi cm smlm, aku bertwaf-twafn kt area tuh lak…gad kt pntu dh usha2 aku plek dh….act,rni klas aku ad wt plan nk pi mkn kt chikenhartz sunway..aku ingt nk pi dri nilai ja…tpi cm mleh lak..myb sbb x smpt jumpa mmbe kot smlm tuh…down ar cket…haha…

kui 6.45 dh tym tuh, bru ad bas,seb bek aku pi tnya bas nk pi nilai, klo duk tgu ja kt bench tuh, mampuih x kmna la aku…aku d only passenger tym tuh..pastuh bru dia stop2 amek org kt tgh jln…masa lam bas tu la msa duk sorg2, bru aku tepike sndri….mmbe aku dh fly cnda….dia dh x da kt msia…klo smlm aku glak msa ckp dia dh dpan plane tym aku bru smpe tu, rini bru aku sedaq aku x smpt jumpa mmbe aku last b4 dia fly….smlm aku rsa klakar n lawak sbb aku dh agk pn aku x smpt n bila smpe tuh mmg aku btol2 x smpt, tpi rini, aku rsa terkilan sbb x smpat…n tym tuh aku asek teppike, awt aku pi sngah gk kt x-skul, pdhal awai2 tuh cm dh nk cancel pn…hmmm…

stgh jam pstuh aku pn smpei la ktm nilai…lam 8 lbey, I am oredy in sermbn…dak2 klas aku bru ja smpe ktm, tpi sb aku pi bli mknnn, so x tesempak pn la ngn depa..mleh dh ar nk join depa,down sbb x smpt jumpa abg kot..aku cm nk belk trus ja…mula ingt nk amek tekc..tpi sbb dh jdik pdng pser aku nya poket, aku pn memutuskn tuk mnikmti nature n mnsyukuri nikmat kaki yg Allah bg nih..aku jln kaki blek hstel dri stesen ktm tuh..klo nek tekc 6 inggit…beh gk jln kki pgi2 buta cm tuh..dh ar ngn x mndi nya lgi..keke…n last, aku smpe kolej kui 9…

alhmdulillah,slmat smpe aku..