Dalam perjalanan dengar surah ahzab
"زلزل زلزالا شديدا"
- hati mereka digoncanf dengan goncangan yg kuat-
My way for tarbiyah was accompanied with few shakes..tergoncang dengan ketakutan.
The first shake- at the station bus
Ada dua hamba Allah yang Allah uji mereka dengan aqal. Allah ambil semula kebolehan mereka
- fisrt takut, sbb rasa x slmat, they can do us anything but not get accountable for it.
- second rsa kesian, because they looked abondoned, and people were smirking at them. Where are the families? The children?
- stu nikmat trtbesar yg Allah trik. It made me think, i got this aqal Allah gavr me, so i should use it at its best. Kdg kite terlupa, dgn nikmat aqal ni lah kita boleh bezakan yg baik dgn yg buruk. Tpi kita x nk guna aqal ni sebaiknya sbb walaupun kita tahu bnda tu x elok, kita still buat jugak. So imagine if Allah takes it back? What will we become?
Second shake - sbb takut atas bus tu, ape2 jadi, sikit org ja atas bus. Bhaya, risau , semua ada. One thought came to me" if i was scared enough, i wont go to ipoh alone anymore". But i still want this tarbiyah. So i'll find other ways to get the tarbiyah. If not possible, i'll have to bear it, and Put my hope to Allah, to protect me all the way. Tawakkaltu alallah. After i hve put all human effort together.
Third shake- well the condition of the bus. It was way beyond the comfort. What a woman wants on thr weekend, travelling alone on a bus like this? Grumpy and bumpy all the time. The bus looks like it has another 1 year to live due to leuchemia.
What a journey. I made a promis, to tarbiyaj myself out of my comfort zone. So this is me trying to reach Allah's mercy outside my comfort zone.
