[-----kem mahasiswa rabbani----]

dh abeh pn kem tuh..2 hari stu mlm ja..
but it's quite an experience..
obstacles n rafting pa suma..
tym rafting tu , raft grup aku hanyut,
x sempat smpe kt seberng pn..
dayung abes-abesan,
tpi still x ley nk lwan angin yg kuat tym tuh..

byk bnda gk la yg aku dscver..
vision, effort, focus, n choice..

nih suma objective dia, act nk ksik upgrade ktorg nya smngt nk A2 nnti..
hopefully, tercpai lah..

but sumthng is still dffrnt wif myself..

aku pelik la,
stiap kli ad talk psal nk naek kn smngt, stiap kli tu la aku akn de-spirited..
x de smngt..jdik down..
aku mmg tau aku nih jenih reverse efek sket..
tpi x kn la bab nih pn nk reverse efek gk..
naya ah aku cm nih..

cnth nya, cm slasa last week tuh ad pgawai BPLM dtg,
lebey kurg cm nk pet talk ah..
tpi aku rsa smcm ja..
nyampah pn ad..
meluat, saket ati pn ad..
geram n macm2 g..

tau sbb pa..?..

sbb dia duk asek ckp psai doing courses within your own choice n interest..
bnda yg kta btol2 nk wt..

abeyh, aku nih dh la geram x ley wt kos yg aku nk..kos yg aku mnat..
pahtu dia duk ckp2 lak psai bnda tuh..

adeyh..
aku sboley2 ny x mo ingt bnda tuh..
i thought i'm over it..
but not yet..
hmm...

A2 dh nk dkat nih..


plizzz la kolej oi..
no more motivation on doing your own choice..about your own interest...
i hve had it enough..i'm hurting inside..
klo motivation nk stdy x pa la gk..nk excel lam exam ka..
but juz exclude the interest n choice..my heart is juz not here...yet..
dont make it drifted away...