[-ReSuLt-]

21 january 09
"reslt will b out today around 8.15am, so please wait at the Hexagon"

huh?..

i was about dragging my feet to the stairs..dup dap..is this true my heart throbbing?..is it true that i felt anxious to know the outcome?

well, frankly speaking, i did feel all that..
but just a bit..
i was calm enough..i could still surf through the net, searching some info for sociology's presentation later(if there be one)..

and the reslt was announced..
and..
i felt nothing at the moment..no joy, no regret, no sadness or anything..

the teachers hugged me, and i said thanx for their prayers, effort and blessing..

2 of my clasamate got all A's equal to 15 points..wow!..congratz!!..

many of us improved , and of course here and there everybody was crying..except the guys and me..

i dropped not even a single tears..be it tears of joy or the opposite..
i just don't feel to..

after recess, we had math class..ms ririn asked if any of us are not happy with our results and half of the class raised their hands including mine..
she cried....

our faces changed..we thought it was okay for us to feel that way, but she did not..
we felt sorry..

she brought us home..to cheer us up..and how grateful i am to her that she did that.
that she showed us the movie - 'The Secret'..[jazakallah khairan kathira teacher]

back in college, in the evening,i realized my mistake..forgive me ya Allah, for not being happy with what YOu had given me,
i should have been grateful..

i AM now..

"Thank you Allah"
-Alhamdulillah-